Sunday, 25 October 2009

Special for Sally at Tuesday's Hope

As we left our city for Vancouver on Friday I picked some favourite songs to listen to on our little road trip. The children bop along and as I drive I get some time to think my own thoughts as the kilometres fly by. Naturally my thoughts most of the time these days go to our George and all the other angel babies and parents. I go through all the names, almost like a mantra, thinking and wondering, despairing and praying.

As we were headed toward the highway we passed a sign for Hope, which is a small city nearby that is surrounded by mountains and nestled alongside a beautiful lake. I've shared with Sally at Tuesday's Hope that every time I see signs for this beautiful city I think of her Hope Angel. Well on Friday I nearly slammed on the brakes when I saw the sign for Hope, BC. If it wasn't pouring rain that day I'd have doubled back and taken the photograph there and then.

Usually the signs for Hope have arrows going left or right or looping left or right in exaggerated curves (saying that lets you all know how directionally challenged I am because it doesn't even occur to me to say east or west, north or south, because I have no idea really). This one has an arrow pointing straight up.

Tears streamed down my face for a greater part of that drive. It was such a beautiful image to me, to see Hope's name and this arrow pointing heavenward.

I got a photo today, after Mass, where we seemed to be surrounded by happy mothers with their crying newborn babies. I felt so bereft as I joined those wailing infants with my own tears for our George. Yet another day that those around me must wonder at the crazy lady with the runny nose who can't stop crying. I decided to go back to what I'm always going to think of now as Hope's heaven-sent sign and get a photograph. It's cloudy today and the leaves are splendid in their autumn colours:



Wishing Sally and every other babylost mumma much peace today. I lit a candle for all of us and our babies and wish so much our little ones were here with us.

10 comments:

Hope's Mama said...

Oh, Karen. I don't know what else to say, but thank you.
If you could send me a copy of that photo, that would be great.
Much love to you. Thinking of baby George with love.
xo

The Blue Sparrow said...

That is really beautiful! I love the sign! Thinking of your friends angel, Hope. *HUGS*

Karen said...

I'm glad you see the beauty in it, Sally. I can't express how it hit me when I saw it and I wanted to post it that night - but of course it was too rainy to get a photo then and too dark when we returned that night. Then I had second thoughts before posting it just now thinking, oh no. What if it isn't lovely and beautiful and peaceful for Sally? I'm glad it is. Phew. (((Hugs))) all round!

after iris said...

What a lovely photo. I think it is always special when someone remembers your baby.

xx

Debby@Just Breathe said...

That was so sweet of you. What a wonderful sign, so perfect for Sally's Hope.

Akul's mama said...

Karen you have a way of warming our hearts. Hugssss from one lost baby mom to another.

Jeanette said...

Karen, you are a lovely thoughtful lady.

Paige said...

Karen, I would've been in tears right beside you. What a beautiful photo. Thank you for always remembering our babies. xo

Monica said...

That's a great photo. Here's to thinking of you, Hope's Mama and the rest of us out here in babyloss-world. :-)

Mackenzie's Mommy said...

That was so sweet of you!! I think of Hope, too everytime I see the work written anywhere.
xo
Ashley