George should be seven months old today. How I wish I were complaining about sleepless nights as he cut teeth and delighting in his baby babble as he watched his older siblings and the Christmas tree.
I've been playing holiday music in the house on the TV music channels (no picture, just music). This one by Loreena McKinnett is played frequently and I love it. It's called The Seven Rejoices of Mary so of course it seems full of meaning to me as a bereaved mother of a seven-month-old angel baby.
I want to rejoice that my boy is in heaven, but I'm not there with my whole heart yet. The very human mother in me, unlike Mary who submitted so humbly and completely to God's will in her life, wants my son back with me.
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I have never heard this song before. It is beautiful!
This song is beautiful...
I know Mary submitted to God's will, but I am sure she grieved her precious son when he died, also.
I rejoice that my baby is heaven as a Christian, but I grieve that my baby is not here as a Mommy...
Thinking of you, my dear friend...
Thinking of you my sweet friend, and remembering George. It is so hard approaching these holidays this way, as opposed to the way things should be, with our little ones smiling in awe at the lights, and in our arms around the tree and in church. sending you so many prayers for peace on this tough milestone. Happy 7 month baby boy! You are so loved and missed always. Please watch over your sweet mother who is trying really, really hard to be strong but is also really, really missing you.
Remembering George with you.
Thinking of George.x
George is in my heart today xx
Thinking of your sweet George today Karen. I don't know that as mortals we are meant to achieve complete surrender to God's will. I don't believe that it is in us as imperfect as we are, but that's okay. I believe God weeps with us, and that his heart feels our sorrows. I'm sure He is very aware of how having George in Heaven makes you sad and that He doesn't expect any more from you than that. Wishing George was with you...Hugs
Thanks, everyone. It's hard on all of us, isn't it? I love this song because I've thought often how sad it must have been for Mary to watch everything that happened to her son. I love Loreena's voice. She has a beautiful Christmas album with scads of old, old, old songs called, "To Drive the Cold Winter Away." She lost her fiance in a car accident if I remember correctly. I just love hearing Christmas songs that are a little more rare than the ones we hear all the time all over the place.
Lovely song, Karen~ I think of your George often, and light a candle for him when I light Levi's. I wish you peace in your heart this Christmas..
xoxo
Sending you a ((hug)) as you remember George on 7 months
Karen-
Thank you for your supportive comment on my blog! I just had to tell you this tid bit. I asked my husband's family to donate in Ella's honor instead ogmf buying me gifts this year. There response? They'd rather buy me gifts. Ugh. I hate them too!
xoxo
Bree
thanks for your comment. No I'm not a vegetarian but I do eat alot of vegetarian meals. :)
Thinking of you as you remember ♥ George ♥ this season.
I am so sorry I missed this post! I have been thinking about you and praying for you though. Sending you lots of love!
wow. i know this post is from 3 months ago, but i just had to tell you that my daughter died on this day -dec 19th 2009...
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